{September 22, 2013}   getting old is getting old.

I feel like I am heading downhill all the time now. 

{February 11, 2013}  
The Kennedy Constant:                                                      |
|     Don't get mad -- get even.    FFpt that; don’t get even, get ahead!
8 Years ago I was using fedora and could interface on all OS. Now I have been strapped to Winblows for so long, I can’t even get Ubuntu to install.

{September 30, 2012}   checking in

I knew something in life would change by placing a deposit on an apartment; Boeing called. . And guess who they want to hire? I would love to work for them, but not until my back is fixed. I cannot pass up this opportunity to be repaired.

{September 19, 2012}   How could he do this to me?

He got married! And did it without me.

{September 19, 2012}   A Eureka moment minus the excitement

I finally see where I rate with Michael. A month ago he was saying if we get an extra 400 bucks, one or the other would fly in and have some fun. Now that I have it, it’s kind of inconvenient to his new retired schedule.  I always hoped he would come around but now it’s time to cut the cord.  I think I need to check into a spa or something.

{August 25, 2012}   Ugh the big 50

Well, I turned 50 yesterday and it was awful. For the first time in my life I begged on a corner and was actually given 6 dollars. I cannot tell you how degrading this feels. In some ways, it was interesting. In others it was painful. For me it feels as tho there will be no future even remotely as good as my past, which, if you know me was extremely bad. Not much to look forward to in other words. Today I got 6 more dollars and heard about the refinery in Venezuela exploding. Figured I better get some fuel before it gets higher than 4.00. My 12 bucks = 3.008. So wish me luck for tomorrow if anyone reads this.

{July 29, 2012}   Just noticing

The last 3 days have felt like Florida here in Hoquiam; hot and sticky. Every joint in my body feels as though I have a rack pulling me apart. Neither pain or muscle relaxant pills help.

I hate days like this; especially when you are down to 119 minutes on cell phone minutes and you have 17 days left.

Since my attorney’s offices are splitting partners, why does my attorney drop me and hand me off to the woman who used to work for the Social Security Office? Should I take this as a beneficial change? Or am I getting screwed like in every other department?

Taking a long walk off a short pier is looking better all the time.

What am I going to ‘win’ in this hearing? Hopefully a few more pennies a month so I can get a room somewhere, work out more, get fusion surgery on the back, a few classes at a local community college and switch my career direction. Then again life has always shot me when I have the most focus.

{March 5, 2012}   Drink 2 on Reboot

Still blah

{March 5, 2012}   Day 1 of Reboot diet

I have started drinking kale, cucumber, celery, lemon, ginger and green apple juice. This is the recipe from Joe Cross’s Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead. Boy am I glad I added extra ginger to this stuff. I will have to tweak the recipe to make it taste better.

et cetera