{August 25, 2012}   Ugh the big 50

Well, I turned 50 yesterday and it was awful. For the first time in my life I begged on a corner and was actually given 6 dollars. I cannot tell you how degrading this feels. In some ways, it was interesting. In others it was painful. For me it feels as tho there will be no future even remotely as good as my past, which, if you know me was extremely bad. Not much to look forward to in other words. Today I got 6 more dollars and heard about the refinery in Venezuela exploding. Figured I better get some fuel before it gets higher than 4.00. My 12 bucks = 3.008. So wish me luck for tomorrow if anyone reads this.

et cetera